Only God Can Change the People Like Me!!!

I just love my life... I m not telling that it s super easy or there s not problems but I just love it with everything... Having my kiddos around me and seeing them hugging and kissing eachother this contunie only 5 mins.. It s ending with a cry or with a fight...But still love it. Love them when they are calling me mommy...

Or when they are coming and hugging me or telling me somethings from their big imagination world...

Today while we wee going for a friend home to minister and I took Odelia with me... One totally covered lady came to tramway with a very little baby. And there was NO ONE to give her the seat... So i was asking her to come and sit next to us and I can carry Odelia with my 7-months old HUGE tummy...And that time I saw my little baby how came a BIG GIRL and have a tender heart for the babies...And I was PROUD of HER one more time...

She was looking at the baby and telling that 'Ayyyyyyyyyyyyyy... Look at that little baby mommy... How cute she is' and she turned the woman and tried to tell the lady with her broken Turkish 'Look we will have a baby too and her name s Abby' ...

When we arrived to friend's home there was a 6 months old baby girl too... She s a beautiful black girl. And Odelia spent her all the time with this beautiful baby. She was giving her water and she was looking her and playing with her and teaching her about feet and hands...And she turned me and said "Mommy i wanna take her to our home. So we can look at her"...

How much i was happy to hear those words and see that my lil baby s not a baby anymore...

So I just remembered that how she was a little girl and one time we were waiting for the boat and one guy start to coming who cant walk very well a lame guy... Odelia was learn to just walk that time and she gone and suddenly hugged him. All of us were suprised because she didnt see that guy before. He was a totally stranger for her and for us... 

And that guy started to cry. And I felt so bad I thought maybe he didnt like that Odelia gone and hugged him. But guy came to us and said that normally kids are scared from him and running from him. But this child was only one who gone to hugged him and made him felt that he s special too...

I m just learning many things from this little girl... Who came to my world and made me mama and changed many things in my life... I really mean many things... My character, my friends, my thoughts, my feelings etc.

So I m not telling everything s easy in our life or this kids are so easy to take care... But I m telling that with all the beauty feelings and harder times I cant imagine my life would be better than this... I know I left my dreams to move to Central Asia, or doing many things by myself, or finish to school or work and have a carreer... But those wouldnt give me a happy life more than what my husband and kids are giving me...

And I know I dont have much friends now and i cant go out with friends and spent time...I know i had to change my many friends just because of they were telling that didnt wanna spent time with my kids... 

I m just %100 pleased what i have and what i choosed...

Who knew me they were all surprised and when i got married and they were even more surprised when i said I m expecting my #1 only few weeks later after my wedding...

They can see how God can change the people who was like me... And I m so happy to see how God s changing me each day...

PS: Ignore the dates of the photos... Most of them wrong.

Another Creative Time with Old Egg Box

Hi there,
As I mentioned yesterday all of us SICK... So cant go to out even for a open market (pazar) where you can find all the cheap veggies and fruits and sometimes even clothes...

So as me and kiddos are at home and while have some old egg box we thought maybe can do something with Odelia when Yuhanna s at his bed for a nap...(but just he slept after more than 1 hour f'ghting with sleep)...

I thought first we can make a mirror for Odelia as She s %100 girlish... But as mirror it didnt turn well and i changed it as a frame... And Odelia liked it... She choose one of the her best photos...

I dont need to explain how to do this frame because it s so simple and just use your and your kiddos' imagination...

Fun time with Kiddos and New Game

Hello everyone...

This 2-3 days kiddos were not feeling well so we were in the home most of the time...
And just was thinking and made a new game for Odelia... She can learn the letters the same time and she can answer the some of the questions...

So I print out some of the animal pictures and Odelia can color it... And wrote animals' names with the colorful big letters...

And with another colorful paper I cut the letters for the animals which i used for our game.
I pasted (stamped) animals' pictures to the big hard paper and wrote animals' names on it.

When it done we started to play with Odelia...
 Turned upside down the letters and asked some questions to Odelia like which color s banana? (This s a tricky question for who married with Indian or Sri Lankan...Because they have green banana too =) )

Or what the cow says? When she answered the question she can take one letter and tried to match the letter with animals' names... When she done all the letters for one animal she s getting one sticker (you can give anything what your kids like)...

Here it s some of the photos for seeing better...

Am I really crazy or just love the blessings from GOD???

Hi everyone...

Sorry for long time didnt write...It was totally busy here.
My kiddos get 6 diases a child sickness like chikenpox... Anyway Praise God it didnt contunie long... In one week it all went away... And my baby sister s here with us more than 2 weeks now... She s not a baby anymore =)She s 16... And my kiddos like to play with her and fight with her as i said she s my babysister...;)

So having fun time and it s so bad that they closed the closest parks to our home...So cant go everytime out and most of time we are doing home activities and ministry works...And how much I m praying to God for provide us a house with a backyard where my kiddos can enjoy and run and burn their energies... I belive God will provide everything what we need...  Also we were planning to send Odelia to kindergarten for this fall but i cant imagine how it s expensive for us... So we just decided to contunie to homeschool and she s ok with that...So God will help my kiddos to find more friends...

And nowadays I m trying to save some money...So trying to not to spend extra money while we are expecting our 3rd blessings... Even I made a home-made laundry detergentand it was soooooooooooo cheap I cant imagine how much i was spending money of this thing... I was paying 26 TL for 3 kg detergent... Which s for only 1 month or less than that... Because of the kids we are washing clothes almost everyday... And for 5 galloon homemade laundry detergent was only 6 TL ($3)... And you cant imagine how wonderful it s smelling... And i added some violent essential oil too... This s wonderful...

Anyway today i was going to some friend home for dinner with kids and David joined us later...
So I was going with 2 kids and 1 in the belly =) And i heard some of the people were telling that How I m crazy...And this last week one lady i met at the park (little bit far from my home) and she saw i m pregnant for my 3rd and she just said me that "YOU ARE JUST CRAZY"... Come on people... I m hearing this sentence so often now... And even at my church one lady came and told me (who doesnt have any baby!!!a single lady) that I m so crazy or so brave...
NOPE people... Me and my husband s not crazy... Just We cant say No to God while he wanna bless us in this way too... You can imagine how wonderful that lil ones giggling sounds... And when they are coming and hugging your neck and telling you that they love you you can understand how a big blessings they are!!!

I dont know about you but I know that my BEST TREASURE s MY GROWING FAMILY...

Also you can check to Psalm 127...

#happy to have this lil ones#

What more than 3?????????

Had wonderful 2-3 weeks... Had a relax weekend last week and learn about God more and i learnt about my kids more too... We had a kitten but it s not good for Yuhanna or i should sayYuhanna is not good for cats...And now we are looking for a place to give the cat away...

After we came back from Yalova Odelia got sick, after her Yuhanna got sick and I was so sick too... I mean i had a terrible stomachache... As you guess it s not good while you are pregnant :( Anyway I m better and Odelia got healed but Yuhanna is still sick, which is terrible for everyone...So I m at the home with him and Odelia went with daddy to church.

So we learnt a new thing about Odelia... That s she wanna go to school, not homeschool...And we are ok with that. She will start to kindergarten nex season...Which mean s we should move too...and after it will come to new baby...So many thing will change in our home. But one thing still be the same: I will learn many things in eachday...about motherhood, about my kids, about my husband and how to be a better wife... But most of all I ll keep to learn about How GOD loves me and my family and learn how to WALK with HIM eachday no matter what.

And I learnt that my husband wants more kids than 3!!!!!!!! We talked and i thought we decided about 3 kids and yesterday we were talking and telling ok after the baby we should give baby stuff away but he said me that " What bout for another babies and pregnancies????????" I was just shock...And asked him again and again what he meant.... He told me that he wants more kids... I do too... But it s not easy in many ways but i think will have more kids... Only God know about number ;)

Having 2 Littles and expecting Another

Having two littles around you and expecting another one is not that easy... Just was feeling over tired everytime... But after I m looking of my 2 kiddos and thinking of being tired for a wonderful reason is not that bad... When this 2 littles come to me and hugging my neck with that little arms is just taking my all tiredness and giving me rest...

And now I stopped nursing to Yuhanna which s making me more strong nowadays...Because 4 months later I ll start to nursing another little one... We are so excited about  new member who will join in our family 4 months later...

4 months??? Is that quick now???Time is flying and I can feel little kicks which makes me so happy and know that my little one is healthy in there...

But the same time need to do many things...Need to prepare many many things...

But most important than all things I should spent more time with GOD... I need to hear from Him, I need to listen Him, and I need to learn to how to trust Him about everything...

Because I know I m nothing without Him. And I need him in every section of my life especially about how to train and teach to my little ones and how to be more helpful wife and learn more about supporting my husband as Spritual...


It s not looks like easy when having crying kids, tired body and need-to-be-clean home....

"I can do all this through him who gives me strenght."   Philippians 4:4

Need a Comforter!!!

I dont know where to start this time...

Just having some rough time...ok not just SOME... It s REALLY HARD TIMES...Just dont know what s going on...I m trying to not show my worries or my disappointments to the my lovely David and my Odelia and Yuhanna...or anyone whose around me or they are thinking that they are with me but in reality it s not true... Only God, only front of my God i can be who i m really with my wrongs, my worries, my feelings...

Only He can know and can comfort... Only God knows how bad i m feeling cant do anything about financial situation we are in... My David who is working very hard to meet all our needs, mine and Odelia's and Yuhanna's even the baby who s in me now...And how much heavy those things in his shoulders...but still he s happy to do it...

I just dont wanna show him the bills which contunie to coming, coming, and coming...or dont wanna say him about the needs we should buy... How i can try to mention even those to my man who s trying to too hard...

So i m just feeling totally useless... Cant help him...I dont have any talent for at least can earn for bills... But nothing...

And there s no one around me can talk with them and have some encouraging words or even a arm to hug and cry freely...

Wait a minute... I have someone... Who is with me everytime... and ready to hold me in His arms when i want... He knows every thoughts i have and all the worries in my heart whose stealing my peace, my joy...
And He knows what i m going trhough... HE s a great comforter when i m alouding him to control me... But most of time I dont wanna see He s there with me all the way i m going through...


His name is JESUS...and He s just telling me "TRUST ME, not the human being but ONLY ME,come to my PRESENCE..."

"Yet I hold this against you: you have forsaken the love you had at first"
Revelation 2:4