I dont know where to start this time...
Just having some rough time...ok not just SOME... It s REALLY HARD TIMES...Just dont know what s going on...I m trying to not show my worries or my disappointments to the my lovely David and my Odelia and Yuhanna...or anyone whose around me or they are thinking that they are with me but in reality it s not true... Only God, only front of my God i can be who i m really with my wrongs, my worries, my feelings...
Only He can know and can comfort... Only God knows how bad i m feeling cant do anything about financial situation we are in... My David who is working very hard to meet all our needs, mine and Odelia's and Yuhanna's even the baby who s in me now...And how much heavy those things in his shoulders...but still he s happy to do it...
I just dont wanna show him the bills which contunie to coming, coming, and coming...or dont wanna say him about the needs we should buy... How i can try to mention even those to my man who s trying to too hard...
So i m just feeling totally useless... Cant help him...I dont have any talent for at least can earn for bills... But nothing...
And there s no one around me can talk with them and have some encouraging words or even a arm to hug and cry freely...
Wait a minute... I have someone... Who is with me everytime... and ready to hold me in His arms when i want... He knows every thoughts i have and all the worries in my heart whose stealing my peace, my joy...
And He knows what i m going trhough... HE s a great comforter when i m alouding him to control me... But most of time I dont wanna see He s there with me all the way i m going through...
His name is JESUS...and He s just telling me "TRUST ME, not the human being but ONLY ME,come to my PRESENCE..."
"Yet I hold this against you: you have forsaken the love you had at first"
Revelation 2:4
