Impatient Mama and Still No BABY!!!

I know it s been long time that didnt write... It was one of the hardest month and still it s ...
One month ago I started feel so much contractions... I mean really contractions not braxton hicks... And it was 2 full days i felt in that way and it was time-to-time... But after all there was nothing... I really mean no baby... but had more and more contractions, cramps in every part of my legs and hips, and so much pressure but still nothing...I finally reached my due date yesterday and had some hope on Monday night after meeting at the church... And couldnt sleep because of the pain and running to bathroom almost every 15 mins... So I had hope this lil girl will come at the right time but when i wake up morning there was nothing...

And now I m overdue. And there s more strong pains with back-pain... Still waiting... I cant be sure what those are really now...But even I m writing this post I m in much more pain I had ever... I m afraid to have a false labor again... I dont want it... I cant handle it... I just wanna see my lil girl and go back into life again... My other two kids need me and i need them so desperately...
I just cant bear that not-enough-mama feelings little bit long...


And by the way Odelia had chickenpox... Yes it was a CHICKENPOX... And i had 2 little ones who have itchy body, high-fever and who needs to cuddles...

So when I was praying I just repent that I was trying to have my lil girl the time I want... But not waiting what s the best time for God... Trying to do my own timing... but not really Jesus timing... When Odelia had chickenpox that time I understood that God has a perfect timing... Praise Him that my lil girl didnt come one month ago...Otherwise it would be danger to have her and a chickenpox-child...

So I m so happy for Odelia's chickenpox finished and she s feeling better... And Yuhanna s 2 years old...

I wish i could contunie more for this post but I cant sit even... Having lots of strong pain/contractions whatever you name it...

My boy and CARS

Oh my... Long time didnt write but you cant even imagine that how much busy was here... We started our homeschool 4 weeks ago and doing well... Odelia s learning letter "D". And she s doing great... She loves to read and i cant tell that she loves that much about writing... But she still writes... 

And Yuhanna!!! Oh my word... He s crazy for cars... He started to talk slowly as he learns 3 languages. But you can hear very well word of CAR... Another kids are sleeping with a teddy bear or dog or doll. But my boy s sleeping with his CARS...
I cant believe that he ll be 2 at this month and the same month our 3rd one will arrive... WHAT??? My baby came a child...
And he loves to hug and cuddles and kisses... Oh how much i love it. Because Odelia isnt allow this one now.

When he was only 1 week... (dont look at the date of pic. It was wrong date)

 Look at this handsome guy... I cant belive how he grown up...

 And here he s... I love this almond eyes...Isnt he cute?

And there s a big chaos going on in our home now. Both kids got cold and grumply. And this lil girl in me just trying to come out and i m so ready for it. And cant wait to hold my 3rd one. 

And just we are looking for a new flat now. So lets see how it will be. I wish it will be a house. I mean with a garden where kids can run freely and wont worry about neighbours... Anyway it s just a dream for now...

And started plan again my days and times...And it s going well I mean i started like schedules...
And learning to more trust to God. He s doing some wonderful things in our family...
I mean 2 weeks ago I was talking with David about which kind of clothes we need for Odelia for the winter... And went to church and some friend said that she brought some clothes for Odelia... And it was all what we talked that we ll need... God s really our provider...

And just you can pray for me that God can give me more strenght. And give me more passion. 
Just cant wait to hold lil Bhaviya Abigail...I m just tired of this big and heavy belly...