My BabyBoy will be a Big Brother!!!

Oh my! I cant believe it happened!

When I learnt that I am expecting my 2nd baby while my 1st baby was only 11 months. And I was just leave to work and cant believe expecting again! I knew God had a plan -I mean a real good plan- and my pregnancy started with terrible back-pain and i've been told that it s because of the one of my nerves. Anyway it went away in a few weeks and I was really glad that I didnt have any problem like my first one! And while I m 20 weeks pregnant and wake up one morning with a terrible pain... I didnt know what was going on...And didnt wanna learn too... I had those pains 3 weeks... And 3 weeks later i recognize that my baby didnt move 3 whole days... Who were pregnant or still they are you can know what it can be! Yes, I thought the same thing. I thought I lost my son! Prayed with 2 good friends and decided to go to hospital but I knew what they ll tell me! We gone and checked the heartbeat which was too low...

And did many tests and many things to see if baby is moving or not, or heart rate will be ok or not!

After all doctor told me to go and eat something and drink 1lt juice...And David and me were just praying like crazy that it can work... And God heard us...My boy started move... It was big miracle...

Few weeks was ok and that pain came back again 4 weeks later... It was really hurting... While I had C-section with my first I didnt know what it was... And we went to hospital again... And they said I was in the labor and baby was small so they gave some injection to stop to birth... And my Dr said if he ll stay inside for 48 hours it will be the biggest miracle ever she saw... And guess what that miracle happened. And She asked us about Jesus more...

When she was on vacation we went to close hospital for check because i had some bleeding and in there they started asked to us if we have any daum syndrom in the family... We started looking each other while trying to understand what that mean! This Dr said he has daum syndrom... It will be so hard for us to look after him etc... 

We prayed and cry to God and accept that if he want us to have a daum syndrom child it will be ok too... But we still knew that prayer can change everything...

After the few test they understood there s nothing in this little boy... He s totally healthy...

And we came until 40 weeks there was not much problem after all... and waiting until 43 weeks...

And after 56 hours contractions i hold him and it was precious moment for David and me... We were in tears but it was happiness tears... I had him natural birth and i learnt how it s great!

The day we had him and came to home the same day 26/11/2011

Big sister reads a book for baby brother

Look at those big and wonderful eyes...

My 3 loves in one photo (+1 now)

Impatient Mama and Still No BABY!!!

I know it s been long time that didnt write... It was one of the hardest month and still it s ...
One month ago I started feel so much contractions... I mean really contractions not braxton hicks... And it was 2 full days i felt in that way and it was time-to-time... But after all there was nothing... I really mean no baby... but had more and more contractions, cramps in every part of my legs and hips, and so much pressure but still nothing...I finally reached my due date yesterday and had some hope on Monday night after meeting at the church... And couldnt sleep because of the pain and running to bathroom almost every 15 mins... So I had hope this lil girl will come at the right time but when i wake up morning there was nothing...

And now I m overdue. And there s more strong pains with back-pain... Still waiting... I cant be sure what those are really now...But even I m writing this post I m in much more pain I had ever... I m afraid to have a false labor again... I dont want it... I cant handle it... I just wanna see my lil girl and go back into life again... My other two kids need me and i need them so desperately...
I just cant bear that not-enough-mama feelings little bit long...


And by the way Odelia had chickenpox... Yes it was a CHICKENPOX... And i had 2 little ones who have itchy body, high-fever and who needs to cuddles...

So when I was praying I just repent that I was trying to have my lil girl the time I want... But not waiting what s the best time for God... Trying to do my own timing... but not really Jesus timing... When Odelia had chickenpox that time I understood that God has a perfect timing... Praise Him that my lil girl didnt come one month ago...Otherwise it would be danger to have her and a chickenpox-child...

So I m so happy for Odelia's chickenpox finished and she s feeling better... And Yuhanna s 2 years old...

I wish i could contunie more for this post but I cant sit even... Having lots of strong pain/contractions whatever you name it...

My boy and CARS

Oh my... Long time didnt write but you cant even imagine that how much busy was here... We started our homeschool 4 weeks ago and doing well... Odelia s learning letter "D". And she s doing great... She loves to read and i cant tell that she loves that much about writing... But she still writes... 

And Yuhanna!!! Oh my word... He s crazy for cars... He started to talk slowly as he learns 3 languages. But you can hear very well word of CAR... Another kids are sleeping with a teddy bear or dog or doll. But my boy s sleeping with his CARS...
I cant believe that he ll be 2 at this month and the same month our 3rd one will arrive... WHAT??? My baby came a child...
And he loves to hug and cuddles and kisses... Oh how much i love it. Because Odelia isnt allow this one now.

When he was only 1 week... (dont look at the date of pic. It was wrong date)

 Look at this handsome guy... I cant belive how he grown up...

 And here he s... I love this almond eyes...Isnt he cute?

And there s a big chaos going on in our home now. Both kids got cold and grumply. And this lil girl in me just trying to come out and i m so ready for it. And cant wait to hold my 3rd one. 

And just we are looking for a new flat now. So lets see how it will be. I wish it will be a house. I mean with a garden where kids can run freely and wont worry about neighbours... Anyway it s just a dream for now...

And started plan again my days and times...And it s going well I mean i started like schedules...
And learning to more trust to God. He s doing some wonderful things in our family...
I mean 2 weeks ago I was talking with David about which kind of clothes we need for Odelia for the winter... And went to church and some friend said that she brought some clothes for Odelia... And it was all what we talked that we ll need... God s really our provider...

And just you can pray for me that God can give me more strenght. And give me more passion. 
Just cant wait to hold lil Bhaviya Abigail...I m just tired of this big and heavy belly...

Hate to See My Girl's Heart Broken!

I know it s been long time... But it was so busy and tired weeks...I was so tired both physically  and emotionally and spritually...

We were just thinking to move another flatt or not until baby comes or winter comes...We still didnt solve it...And still praying that God's guide for us. Because I m so tired to move another home but I know moving s the best for us. Best for me and kids and David...

One of the my sister came to visit us after 2 years. It was great time and busy time but all we enjoy... Especially my kids were enjoying to know their aunt and spent time with her. But she was only 1 week with us.

And one of the refugee lady gave to birth who I was trying to help about her pregnancy and baby. It was not that easy... She went to hospital too early and hospital was too rough with us and with her so she finally had C-section and stayed at the hospital almost 1 week... And I had to gone to hospital everyday... It s more than 1 hour ride to reach the hospital and I was so tired in everyway... The same time my kids were so sick and i had to left them at home with David and gone to help that lady... So I was feeling too guilty to leave my kids at home in that situation and leave to David alone with 2 sick kids for hours everyday...
So last saturday I started have terrible low back pain and braxton hicks...Some of them were coming every 20 mins so strongly during 3 hours non-stop...That contractions still contunie and so strongly even cant walk many times...

And Odelia wants to go to so badly... So I gone and try to put her a government preschool...But they didnt accept... They said me to put her the private one and i think they dont know the prices...
And Odelia was soooo upset and she was crying all the day and still crying when she remembers about school... And when i see her like that my heart s just hurting so much for I cant do anything for this... It s really hurting me. I tried to talk with her about contunie to home-school but she says that she wanna go to a REAL SCHOOL...
I cant blame her... She s right. She wanna meet with other kids and learn from a real teacher not from her mommy who s trying to manage with a 22 months old boy and home chores and phone calls because of another people's work problem and so soon another baby will come...

Oh God we know that YOU know the best and you love my kids more than me...

Only God Can Change the People Like Me!!!

I just love my life... I m not telling that it s super easy or there s not problems but I just love it with everything... Having my kiddos around me and seeing them hugging and kissing eachother this contunie only 5 mins.. It s ending with a cry or with a fight...But still love it. Love them when they are calling me mommy...

Or when they are coming and hugging me or telling me somethings from their big imagination world...

Today while we wee going for a friend home to minister and I took Odelia with me... One totally covered lady came to tramway with a very little baby. And there was NO ONE to give her the seat... So i was asking her to come and sit next to us and I can carry Odelia with my 7-months old HUGE tummy...And that time I saw my little baby how came a BIG GIRL and have a tender heart for the babies...And I was PROUD of HER one more time...

She was looking at the baby and telling that 'Ayyyyyyyyyyyyyy... Look at that little baby mommy... How cute she is' and she turned the woman and tried to tell the lady with her broken Turkish 'Look we will have a baby too and her name s Abby' ...

When we arrived to friend's home there was a 6 months old baby girl too... She s a beautiful black girl. And Odelia spent her all the time with this beautiful baby. She was giving her water and she was looking her and playing with her and teaching her about feet and hands...And she turned me and said "Mommy i wanna take her to our home. So we can look at her"...

How much i was happy to hear those words and see that my lil baby s not a baby anymore...

So I just remembered that how she was a little girl and one time we were waiting for the boat and one guy start to coming who cant walk very well a lame guy... Odelia was learn to just walk that time and she gone and suddenly hugged him. All of us were suprised because she didnt see that guy before. He was a totally stranger for her and for us... 

And that guy started to cry. And I felt so bad I thought maybe he didnt like that Odelia gone and hugged him. But guy came to us and said that normally kids are scared from him and running from him. But this child was only one who gone to hugged him and made him felt that he s special too...

I m just learning many things from this little girl... Who came to my world and made me mama and changed many things in my life... I really mean many things... My character, my friends, my thoughts, my feelings etc.

So I m not telling everything s easy in our life or this kids are so easy to take care... But I m telling that with all the beauty feelings and harder times I cant imagine my life would be better than this... I know I left my dreams to move to Central Asia, or doing many things by myself, or finish to school or work and have a carreer... But those wouldnt give me a happy life more than what my husband and kids are giving me...

And I know I dont have much friends now and i cant go out with friends and spent time...I know i had to change my many friends just because of they were telling that didnt wanna spent time with my kids... 

I m just %100 pleased what i have and what i choosed...

Who knew me they were all surprised and when i got married and they were even more surprised when i said I m expecting my #1 only few weeks later after my wedding...

They can see how God can change the people who was like me... And I m so happy to see how God s changing me each day...

PS: Ignore the dates of the photos... Most of them wrong.

Another Creative Time with Old Egg Box

Hi there,
As I mentioned yesterday all of us SICK... So cant go to out even for a open market (pazar) where you can find all the cheap veggies and fruits and sometimes even clothes...

So as me and kiddos are at home and while have some old egg box we thought maybe can do something with Odelia when Yuhanna s at his bed for a nap...(but just he slept after more than 1 hour f'ghting with sleep)...

I thought first we can make a mirror for Odelia as She s %100 girlish... But as mirror it didnt turn well and i changed it as a frame... And Odelia liked it... She choose one of the her best photos...

I dont need to explain how to do this frame because it s so simple and just use your and your kiddos' imagination...

Fun time with Kiddos and New Game

Hello everyone...

This 2-3 days kiddos were not feeling well so we were in the home most of the time...
And just was thinking and made a new game for Odelia... She can learn the letters the same time and she can answer the some of the questions...

So I print out some of the animal pictures and Odelia can color it... And wrote animals' names with the colorful big letters...

And with another colorful paper I cut the letters for the animals which i used for our game.
I pasted (stamped) animals' pictures to the big hard paper and wrote animals' names on it.

When it done we started to play with Odelia...
 Turned upside down the letters and asked some questions to Odelia like which color s banana? (This s a tricky question for who married with Indian or Sri Lankan...Because they have green banana too =) )

Or what the cow says? When she answered the question she can take one letter and tried to match the letter with animals' names... When she done all the letters for one animal she s getting one sticker (you can give anything what your kids like)...

Here it s some of the photos for seeing better...