Dont know how to or where to start...But sometimes i cant even remember my new title i ve got 3 years ago...MOTHER...or maybe i thought it will be easier than what i learnt now...
As i m pregnant for my 3rd one i thought it will be easy I m already stay at home mom since 2 years... But it's not that easy for me... I was so tired and have terrible morning sicknesses even sometimes i thought 'what I'm doing???' But when i start to thinking about that new lifeand that little one who will need me for everything at least 1 year, and that joy which he/she'll bring our growing family just having joy...That fear and selfish goes but still need to work on it...
So last 11 weeks i couldnt do anything!!! No cooking, no cleaning, no laundry even not spending time with my kiddos...Because i had excuse that I AM PREGNANT!!! I was like blind... I couldnt see how much my husband needs me while he s working full time and how much my kiddos need me... More than 8 hours they are alone with me and cant do much things...cant learn many things... I dont know how i couldnt see those...
I dont know how much i could be selfish like this...So one day Odelia turned me and said "Mommy please cook, i want to eat"... What??? It was like taking shower with cold water in winter...
How much my kiddos need me??? I just wake up from my selfish sleep... It s time to wake up and start to do my responsibilities again...and I just gone my kitchen and was looking what i have in the home for cook...And another problem... didnt go to shopping for 11 weeks and there was nothing...
So no matter what i just wake up and now i know better what or who s are first...Thanks God for remind me and telling again that how much you loved me and how much you loved my husband and my kiddos...
So when i m seeing Odelia prays for food everytime she s thanking to God for everyone in the family even baby who she cant see yet I know what s my most important work and ministry...
Still learning how to enjoy with my most important work...Being a MOTHER for 2 and 1 on the way kiddos...And being a WIFE for the most WONDERFUL HUSBAND...
