Or when they are coming and hugging me or telling me somethings from their big imagination world...
Today while we wee going for a friend home to minister and I took Odelia with me... One totally covered lady came to tramway with a very little baby. And there was NO ONE to give her the seat... So i was asking her to come and sit next to us and I can carry Odelia with my 7-months old HUGE tummy...And that time I saw my little baby how came a BIG GIRL and have a tender heart for the babies...And I was PROUD of HER one more time...
She was looking at the baby and telling that 'Ayyyyyyyyyyyyyy... Look at that little baby mommy... How cute she is' and she turned the woman and tried to tell the lady with her broken Turkish 'Look we will have a baby too and her name s Abby' ...
When we arrived to friend's home there was a 6 months old baby girl too... She s a beautiful black girl. And Odelia spent her all the time with this beautiful baby. She was giving her water and she was looking her and playing with her and teaching her about feet and hands...And she turned me and said "Mommy i wanna take her to our home. So we can look at her"...
How much i was happy to hear those words and see that my lil baby s not a baby anymore...
So I just remembered that how she was a little girl and one time we were waiting for the boat and one guy start to coming who cant walk very well a lame guy... Odelia was learn to just walk that time and she gone and suddenly hugged him. All of us were suprised because she didnt see that guy before. He was a totally stranger for her and for us...
And that guy started to cry. And I felt so bad I thought maybe he didnt like that Odelia gone and hugged him. But guy came to us and said that normally kids are scared from him and running from him. But this child was only one who gone to hugged him and made him felt that he s special too...
I m just learning many things from this little girl... Who came to my world and made me mama and changed many things in my life... I really mean many things... My character, my friends, my thoughts, my feelings etc.
So I m not telling everything s easy in our life or this kids are so easy to take care... But I m telling that with all the beauty feelings and harder times I cant imagine my life would be better than this... I know I left my dreams to move to Central Asia, or doing many things by myself, or finish to school or work and have a carreer... But those wouldnt give me a happy life more than what my husband and kids are giving me...
And I know I dont have much friends now and i cant go out with friends and spent time...I know i had to change my many friends just because of they were telling that didnt wanna spent time with my kids...
I m just %100 pleased what i have and what i choosed...
Who knew me they were all surprised and when i got married and they were even more surprised when i said I m expecting my #1 only few weeks later after my wedding...
They can see how God can change the people who was like me... And I m so happy to see how God s changing me each day...
PS: Ignore the dates of the photos... Most of them wrong.
