Having 2 Littles and expecting Another

Having two littles around you and expecting another one is not that easy... Just was feeling over tired everytime... But after I m looking of my 2 kiddos and thinking of being tired for a wonderful reason is not that bad... When this 2 littles come to me and hugging my neck with that little arms is just taking my all tiredness and giving me rest...

And now I stopped nursing to Yuhanna which s making me more strong nowadays...Because 4 months later I ll start to nursing another little one... We are so excited about  new member who will join in our family 4 months later...

4 months??? Is that quick now???Time is flying and I can feel little kicks which makes me so happy and know that my little one is healthy in there...

But the same time need to do many things...Need to prepare many many things...

But most important than all things I should spent more time with GOD... I need to hear from Him, I need to listen Him, and I need to learn to how to trust Him about everything...

Because I know I m nothing without Him. And I need him in every section of my life especially about how to train and teach to my little ones and how to be more helpful wife and learn more about supporting my husband as Spritual...


It s not looks like easy when having crying kids, tired body and need-to-be-clean home....

"I can do all this through him who gives me strenght."   Philippians 4:4

Need a Comforter!!!

I dont know where to start this time...

Just having some rough time...ok not just SOME... It s REALLY HARD TIMES...Just dont know what s going on...I m trying to not show my worries or my disappointments to the my lovely David and my Odelia and Yuhanna...or anyone whose around me or they are thinking that they are with me but in reality it s not true... Only God, only front of my God i can be who i m really with my wrongs, my worries, my feelings...

Only He can know and can comfort... Only God knows how bad i m feeling cant do anything about financial situation we are in... My David who is working very hard to meet all our needs, mine and Odelia's and Yuhanna's even the baby who s in me now...And how much heavy those things in his shoulders...but still he s happy to do it...

I just dont wanna show him the bills which contunie to coming, coming, and coming...or dont wanna say him about the needs we should buy... How i can try to mention even those to my man who s trying to too hard...

So i m just feeling totally useless... Cant help him...I dont have any talent for at least can earn for bills... But nothing...

And there s no one around me can talk with them and have some encouraging words or even a arm to hug and cry freely...

Wait a minute... I have someone... Who is with me everytime... and ready to hold me in His arms when i want... He knows every thoughts i have and all the worries in my heart whose stealing my peace, my joy...
And He knows what i m going trhough... HE s a great comforter when i m alouding him to control me... But most of time I dont wanna see He s there with me all the way i m going through...


His name is JESUS...and He s just telling me "TRUST ME, not the human being but ONLY ME,come to my PRESENCE..."

"Yet I hold this against you: you have forsaken the love you had at first"
Revelation 2:4

Have more responsibilities than what i thought

Dont know how to or where to start...But sometimes i cant even remember my new title i ve got 3 years ago...MOTHER...or maybe i thought it will be easier than what i learnt now... 

As i m pregnant for my 3rd one i thought it will be easy I m already stay at home mom since 2 years... But it's not that easy for me... I was so tired and have terrible morning sicknesses even sometimes i thought 'what I'm doing???' But when i start to thinking about that new lifeand that little one who will need me for everything at least 1 year, and that joy which he/she'll bring our growing family just having joy...That fear and selfish goes but still need to work on it...


So last 11 weeks i couldnt do anything!!! No cooking, no cleaning, no laundry even not spending time with my kiddos...Because i had excuse that I AM PREGNANT!!! I was like blind... I couldnt see how much my husband needs me while he s working full time and how much my kiddos need me... More than 8 hours they are alone with me and cant do much things...cant learn many things... I dont know how i couldnt see those...
I dont know how much i could be selfish like this...So one day Odelia turned me and said "Mommy please cook, i want to eat"... What??? It was like taking shower with cold water in winter...

How much my kiddos need me??? I just wake up from my selfish sleep... It s time to wake up and start to do my responsibilities again...and I just gone my kitchen and was looking what i have in the home for cook...And another problem... didnt go to shopping for 11 weeks and there was nothing...

So no matter what i just wake up and now i know better what or who s are first...Thanks God for remind me and telling again that how much you loved me and how much you loved my husband and my kiddos...

So when i m seeing Odelia prays for food everytime she s thanking to God for everyone in the family even baby who she cant see yet I know what s my most important work and ministry...

Still learning how to enjoy with my most important work...Being a MOTHER for 2 and 1 on the way kiddos...And being a WIFE for the most WONDERFUL HUSBAND...

BIG NEWS!

Hey everyone!

You know what? We are expectin again!!! Our #3 is on the way... Just feeling so happy but so tired and so much morning sicknesses. Almost 24/7... I cant cook anymore... I cant go to my kitchen... Maybe you wont belive but i cant hear RICE or CHICKEN words. Even now i m feeling terrible for mention those things...But you know what my husband is Sri Lankan. That mean s RICE s everything for him... Poor guy he cant eat now. 

My poor kids too... I cannot cook anything... I dont know when this feeling will pass but just praying it can pass as soon as possible... Because it s not fun...

I've never been this much bad with other 2 pregnancies. With Odelia I was so bad too but not this much.

So here it s our news for the week...

When we gone to check that are we really pregnant or not my doctor was not at hospital. So we should go other doctor. And she was asking my husband  where he s from... and he started explain... She said just last week she was in India... So she was so nice to us...

My Odelia was so happy that we said her we are having another baby... I m not sure how much she can remember or not but all the week she played with a doll and feeding her and cleaning her. Sometimes coming to me and wanna kiss my tummy... She s just so cute...

Yuhanna doesnt care anything...I dont think that he understand what is going on... But he wants to be my only baby...He s climbing on me and kissing me... It just melting my heart...

I love to be a mom for 3...

Finally Finished!!!

Yep y'all! Finally finished...

I m talking about Odelia's fever! What a hard week it was... I've never be tired this much and never think about how it s hard for me to see my lil girl in that situation! God s wonderful...

He s making miracles all the time... And my girl totally healed.

And i was in a conferance today. It was wonderful for either ways.I was little bit resting and i was listening wonderful speech...

But I was still miss my 2 babies. David said me that Odelia asked him that she want to see mommy... awwwww how cute it s and Yuhanna came and hugged him many times as he does to me...

I am just learning how to be a full time mom and how to protect and teach my kids about God and everything else...And I m learning that it s not that easy as i thought. But it s greater feeling than i thought...
I m so happy that i have this 2... and have a wonderful husband who s supporting me for everything...
And I decided to educate myself more so i can give more to my kids and husband and even some people who needs to advise... (Lets see)! And decided to go over again my goals of the year...

One of the my goal for the rest of the year I will spent more time for writing... And i have to managing my time and learn how to make plans... Ah Lord just give me the strength to do this and teach me about yourself...

My poor little girl

My girl had a wonderful birthday but the same night she had so high fever and  morning i gave her medicine and she was ok. But 2 hours later she had again so high fever it was 41 C ...Oh gush...

I didnt know what to do and took her the hospital and it was not easy because my girl is afraid from doctors.
Anyway they gave us some medicines. It was more hard at night and we didnt sleep until 5 am.

And she was ok at 7 am but now fever started came up again...

I had to cancel our dinner with friends...
Just wanna share some of the birthday party photos at below.

Birthday Party for my First Born

It was such a busy week...
Could you believe how much i should do cleaning and cleaning and cleaning...Shopping and planning and cooking and baking and i did my first fondant Birthday cake... It was such a cool experience...but took my 4 hours too...

And i invited just the few people with their little kids...But only 3 of them came...urghhhhhhh...
But it was ok and my all the feelings changed when my baby girl (3yo) was so happy and excited...

My day turned 180C  when she said me that `thank you mommy`... You are welcome my sweety...

I should thank you that you made me momma for the first time... and bring to my life more laugh, joy, happiness... I cant even think a life without you my Odelia... You are the real Grace from GOD...

You made my day longer and night shorter but made my life more enjoyable...

Love you sweetheart

Momma